Interview Results

I got the call this afternoon that Brigham had offered the position I interviewed for to another candidate. The principal was very positive and asked me not to give up on them. I thanked him for letting me know and told him I would continue pursuing them.
I can't lie and say that I wasn't upset. Even as I was writing the first paragraph a few hours ago (I had to go to church for FPU -Financial Peace University by Dave Ramsey), I was crying off and on, as I did the entire afternoon and evening. My head KNOWS unequivocally that God is is control, He only kept this job away because He has something better, and I just have to be patient and wait for His timing to provide me with a job. I do KNOW that! But my HEART is sooooo terribly disappointed and cannot comprehend why God could not have given me THIS position, that felt so very right for me in this situation! I was SO SURE that this was "IT!" This is my heart talking. My head knows the only reason God kept this job from me is because there is something that is even better suited to me and the skills He has gifted me with. But the head and the heart are two VERY different entities, am I right????
So please continue praying. I need them now more than ever. Thank you for what prayers have already been lifted to the Heavens to the very ears of God on my behalf. They have to be in the hundreds or perhaps more from just this week (and possibly from just my mom :-)